[high and low]

when school nearly finished. I felt high.
but near the last section of the pulau tekong trip, I felt depressed again.
coming back to school was so so sad.


I could not face the idea of eating hostel food after a long hard day. Hence, I went out for dinner, ALONE. What a loser! Went to a small Jap food restaurant and SURPRISE, i got a $3 side-dish, ON THE HOUSE. HA ha, obviously they offer free side-dish to students in uniform. That's cute. So even though I ordered Sukiyaki only, I got a free dish. I felt like I had my CONSUMER's SURPLUS.

I reached the hostel. How depressing! Realised that I missed a lot in choir today. Lately, I have been missing a lot from choir. Maybe this is why these few days I'm so depressed, discontented and always think that everyone is mad at me and want to kill me. GOSH. Without choir for a week, I think I lost my balance.

The Pulau Tekong trip was both interesting and damn boring. Got a chance to see how Singaporean guys do NS. I must say that this NS thing benefits a lot. Sounds Dorky but true! All the training, neatness, discipline, everyone is forced to be a MAN. That's really cool. But the bad part about the trip is the travelling time. So bloody long and boring. I listened to Corrinne May's songs during the trip, which made it less painfully boring. And the last presenter of the trip is pathetically dull, he spoilt the mood of the whole trip.

Tomorrow is Teacher's day. I have no time to prepare anything for any of them. I'm such a lousy student.

Lousy study. Lousy health. Uncharismatic. Too quiet. Vocal strength not powerful enough.

And I can't find anything good about myself.

Ha ha. Things have gone bad this year. But what to do, just have to PERSEVERE ON. I guess.

I've lost my trust in God. I think i'll join CF meetings from now on. I don't want to lose my faith.

Don is a troubled boi.